Do you love me?’ I asked her. She smiled. ‘Yes.’ ‘Do you want me to be happy?’ as I asked her this I felt my heart beginning to race. ‘Of course I do.’ ‘Will you do something for me then?’ She looked away, sadness crossing her features. ‘I don’t know if I can anymore.’ she said. ‘but if you could, would you?’ I cannot adequately describe the intensity of what I was feeling at that moment. Love, anger, sadness, hope, and fear, whirling together sharpened by the nervousness I was feeling. Jamie looked at me curiously and my breaths became shallower. Suddenly I knew that I’d never felt as strongly for another person as I did at that moment. As I returned her gaze, this simple realization made me wish for the millionth time that I could make all this go away. Had it been possible, I would have traded my life for hers. I wanted to tell her my thoughts, but the sound of her voice suddenly silenced the emotions inside me. ‘yes’ she finally said, her voice weak yet somehow still full of promise. ‘I would.’ Finally getting control of myself I kissed her again, then brought my hand to her face, gently running my fingers over her cheek. I marveled at the softness of her skin, the gentleness I saw in her eyes. even now she was perfect. My throat began to tighten again, but as I said, I knew what I had to do. Since I had to accept that it was not within my power to cure her, what I wanted to do was give her something that she’d wanted. It was what my heart had been telling me to do all along. Jamie, I understood then, had already given me the answer I’d been searching for, the answer my heart needed to find. She’d told me outside Mr. Jenkins office, the night we’d asked him about doing the play. I smiled softly, and she returned my affection with a slight squeeze of my hand, as if trusting me in what I was about to do. Encouraged, I leaned closer and took a deep breath. When I exhaled, these were the words that flowed with my breath. ‘Will you marry me?
—Nicholas Sparks, A Walk to Remember (via kushandwizdom)
I’m not a “second choice.”
I’m not anybody’s “backup plan.”
So I’m going to break free and grow stronger without you.
Best birthday gift ever. ❤️ My amazing boyfriend made all these cute little stars in this one jar. He made all of the stars from his favorite music sheets and songs that he sang. He also puts a yellow star that represents me. As his shining star. ❤️💫 He told me the story of making these stars and he did an amazing job making this gift. And inside the jar, there is 17 pieces of string that represent when I first met him at the age of 17. He also wrote me this letter and wrote 20 things when he thinks about me. As I read the letter, it made me cry!! AHH, tears of joy! ❤️ It’s called, “The 20’s list.” (1) I met you. (2) Your eyes when we lay in bed. (3) Your hugs & kisses. (4) Your smile. (5) We sing together. (6) You dance. (7) We talk. (8) You talk. (9) You listen. (10) You’re smart. (11) You’re kind. (12) You’re understanding. (13) You are extremely charming. (14) Handsome. (15) Unique. (16) You are perfectly imperfect. (17) We laugh at even the lamest jokes. (18) The waddle in your walk when you’re lazy. (19) Your laugh. (20) You chose me. As I read the list from 1 to 10, I had the biggest smile on my face. Continuing on from 11 to 15, I shed a tear. And as I read from 16 to 20, I slowly broke into tears of joy and cried reading everything. After reading everything, I cried a lot! Truly thanking him for these amazing gift to me. He is truly amazing and I love him so much. Thank you for the best birthday gift my love!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! MERP!! ❤️ (at Lada!)
Haze McCarthy !!